:: please sent me to rehab centre ::

semlm aku beli durian RM 10=2biji.cukup le utk aku yg solo nie.blk umah mmg dh lmbt smlm.dlm 9.30pm.sooo..aku bantai sebijik.wat lepas gian.emmm...im really addicted,please somebody help me ! send me to rehab centre to cure me.hahaha.

then,pg nie..aku bwk durian yg balance tu,kasik buah ati kesaygan aku.pening le dia letak durian dlm kete lama-lama.dia xtau aku punye pening dok semlman dgn durian tuh.kat mane le dia nk sental durian tuh kang.hehehe.

mak,mcm tuh gak..khamis nie nk pg kemo.jp nnt aku call dia,tanye dia mcmane.

smlm aku mkn durian,di temani Mr Patrick..hehehe.

:: mom,get well soon ::

smlm my laundry day,fuhhh..pnt.siap lipat kaen segala.terasa mcm nk ambek maid plak.pas tu leh dera maid tuh.hahaha.then,semlm dating jp dgn pengarang jantung aku.lps rindu sket,walau pn mmg tiap2 ari jumpe.hehehe.

semlm also,call mak.dia kata start wat kemo nx wk.emmmm...sian.what to do,kena wat gak.if i can replace her,i'll do.sian dia,dh tua kena wat mcm2.

today,jejak kasih kwn2 lama.dpt borak2 kjp kak wani thru YM.then,Linn plak call.emmm...i miss my good all days....

dear family,my sayg & friends.....deep from my heart,i miss & love all of u.sometimes,im forget to do a thing that can make me happy.

:: im addicted ! help me ! ::

im addicted,really addicted.after blk kpg,seem like when i slept..every nite is nitemare.i need durian to cure me.cure my soul,my heart..give me energy.hahaha.

im bleeding.a woman monthly sickness.hehehe.

:: blk kpg ::

today also lepak2 kat opis,sales dh achieve target.mula le penyakit malas pn dtg.smlm call mak,dia kata..kalo ok..blk le.tp,yg lg best dia ckp..kalo takde duit,dpt gaji nnt baru blk pn xpe.kalo aku blk skrg or later,dia ckp..dia tetap sakit gk.adusss..maner ler aku nk carik mak yg mcm nie punye phm dgn keadaan anak2.dia cuma nk anak dia jengok dia je,tp kalo anak ade masalah..nnt2 jengok dia pn takpe.

sedey siouttt...aku wat2 ckp.nnt le,tgk le mcmane.pdhal,aku dh apply cuti isnin & selasa nie.nk spend masa lama sket dgn dia.Demi Allah,kalo aku kj sendri..aku rela tutup kedai & jaga dia kt kpg.tp,aku nie kj dgn org..everything sumer ade limitation.aku taw dia xde masalah duit,tp its not a good behavior kalo tak jengok org tua yg sakit.tambah2 lg..org tua tuh adalah mak aku.

ptg nie,nk pg kedai..nk belikan dia handbag.nk beli 2,satu utk dia..satu lg utk mak yah..akak aku yg jaga dia.depa nie,kalo aku bg duit,depa tak nak..kalo aku beli something..depa mesti tak tolaknye.mcm mak aku,aku slalu masukkan duit dlm ATM..kalo aku nk bg cash..mesti dia ckp,ko guna le sendri..mak ade duit.ape le mak aku nie,life aku ok skrg..ok sgt2.tuh pn sbb dia,sbb dia jaga aku elok2 smpi jd mcm nie.

:: ingin terbang ::

smlm,mase lunch kt Bukit Damansara..kelmarinnya..aku t'cekik tulang ikan.terasa ilang nikmat hidup.dgn menelan nasik ajaib yg di kepal oleh buah ati pengarang aku dan dgn izinNya..maka tulang ikan pun gone with the wind.thanks God.i love u !!

today,i dont have any grand planning.update some stuff eg my works,facebook & again blog.alhamdullilah,everything fine.i've call my mom yesterday.she had small surgery to drill (can i consider it as a drill ??) to take some air sum-sum.

alah..soooo sad.what i was think yesterday until now..i want flying to kampung and see my mom.jiwa i really kacau.i love her soooooooooo much.

:: im erasing my bad memories ::

bestnyer title today,im erasing my bad memories.actually,suppose to write this.shit & bitch memories.hahaha.tp,nmpk mcm ala2 tak b'sopan santun le sesgt.sopan ke aku ?? hehehe.today,received email from ex-panasonic & kak leha said im=ain shipping.yeahhh..she rite.absolutely rite ! but..u know what...i hate that.i hate that gelaran,jawatan,sound or what-so-ever with the same meaning of that kind of fuck thing.

for the past almost 3years,im trying to erase all my 'ain shipping' memories.i was been treated as a stupid creature by my boss.my jiran at sebelah my desk.having a reallly bad relationship to replace a professional office behaviour.

nevermind leeee,past is past.in future,try as best as i-we-us can.Tuhan sentiasa bersama org yg sabar.insyaAllah.

i like writing.and speaking about writing,this time.. not only a blog.it'll be bigger than that.than this.bigger than a blog,bigger than a journal.and it concists of all my experiences.my life.basically.. yeah,a life journal...a more complicated thing.hehehe.

wahhhh...ape yg aku tulis nie,pjg sihhhh.....time to do work.

:: gambo cool ::

smlm,opismate yg dok dpn meja aku..mak dia meninggal.mak dia mmg dh lama sakit.sooo..takziah le utk dia.turn dia dh lps,turn aku..ntah bile lg.hrp2 Tuhan kebalkan ati aku.

td lunch kt JJ,IOI..sorang2..mcm biase.ingat nk beli suar warna cream,ari tuh dh tgk..tp,x beli2.skali,today bile dtg..suar tuh xtau kt mane nyorok.mangkuk hayun tul.frustation tahap kambing gurun le gua.hehehe.

yg lelain.takde ape yg best pn.life mcm biasa,alhamdullilah.nie gambo cool yg aku rase besttt sgt.saje wat 2 version,version original..mmg lawa,tp..version black & white lg lawa !!

:: mcm biase-biase ::

skrg nie,aku tgh bizi search info batu gunung berapi utk mak aku.dia kata,batu nie bgs utk kesihatan.peliknya,ada yg harga RM 500+,ade yg RM 200+..yg mane 1 btl nie.nmpk mcm serupa je.

ade 2-3 issue psl kj yg tak settle.rase bile smpi umah pn mcm t'ingat2 je.leh bwk ke mimpi plak.floating memory kot.bosan..bosan..bile le nk dpt kawen dgn Tan Sri,x pyh kj ssh2 mcm skrg nie.hahaha.ape2 pn,aku b'syukur dgn lifestyle skrg.had a simple life for a simple person like me.

esok sabtu,xde plan ape2 pn.menjak dh x brp muda nie,aku mcm xde social life.dok memerap je kat umah.tp,best gak.dulu mase muda dh pueh poya2.skrg nie time nk m'lepak2.

mane buah ati aku nie,senyap jeeee...curang ke ?? hehehe.

:: my truly bestpren ::

isnin & selasa kuar,rase pnt gile.mcm kj tanpa rest.blk umah,t'bongkang tdo.today,lepak kt opis.abeskn mane2 kj yg t'tunggak.ade a few issue yg kena settle.pnt.kena lyn mcm2 karenah client.tp,nie le life.carik mkn,ssh mcmane pn..asal utk dpt rezeki halal,aku redah je.where place got money,many2 money..here i come.hehehe.

smlm,jengok kwn yg sakit.kesian ade,nyamph pn ade.aku nie,ssh nk simpati kt org sbb org jarang simpati kt aku mase aku ssh.bg aku,bestpren aku yg paling setia is Allah.Dia tak prnh kecikkan ati aku malah sentiasa dgr masalah2 aku.aku slalu rase taksub & respect gile kt Dia sbb bile aku di landa kesshn,dgn rahmatnya..masalah mcm automatically settle.alhamdullilah.beside that,aku tetap b'buat baik dgn manusia.mane yg mampu aku tlg,insyaAllah aku tlg..but,dont high expectation on me.im unpredictable.

nk lunch.mc d.aku belanja diri sendiri....hahaha.

:: at last.hehe ::

alhamdullilah,at last..my mr customer dpt gk brg dia.haram btl.td,mase aku smpi kt KPMG tower,b'asap2 aku nk mrh dia.tp,bile aku jumpe dia..elok jer.hehehe.siap lepak2 sambil minom air milo instant yg tak brp nk sdp.

after sessi lepak-ing,jln2 jp kt 1 Utama.cuci mata,penatkn kaki.last2,pth blk Puchong.pi JJ kt IOI,m'cekik sushi for lunch.nothing much today.

ni nk lepak2 jp smbil update Facebook.menjak ade Facebook nie,blog aku pn ade gambo.hahaha.

:: de' bosan day ::

nuthin much today,bosan-bosan mcm biase.rase mcm nk jd usahawan lintah,lg best dr wat kj skrg.hehehe.angan2 jer,no harm done.

mlm td,mase godek2 laptop..meletop2 rase nk update Facebook,bile dh smpi opis..malas mcm cipan.dok nganga je.toleh kiri,toleh kanan.dok hangguk2 dpn bos.ehhh...bile mase plak bos ckp dgn aku today.

tibe2..rase mcm nk letak gambo.letak le....bkn sape nk tgk pn.hehehe.pehhhh...awek b'tudung yg sopan lg b'hati suci.caya le aku !! hahaha.uisshhhh...anak sape nie ?? debabnye aku.hahaha.gelak lg.(gelak sbb hati sakit,tiap2 ari kena maki dek mr customer)

duit gaji tgh byk,byr loan umah,loan kete,astro,TNB,maintenance,elaun utk Datin (mak aku ler..hehehe).emm..byk lg balance.leh poya2 mcm biase.smlm dh beli kasut Voir 2psg.smpi kt umah,nmpk mcm x best plak.cehhhh...napsu kuda padi x abes2 aku nie.

bosan..bosan..

:: dont maki me,mr customer ::

tension gile,sakit ati giler babas.tatau nak maki kat sape.last2,aku yg kena maki.pening dgn order HDC,brg still xde stock.bkn salah aku kalo principal yg lmbt.aku x kisah pn kalo dia nk ambik dgn supplier lain.kalo dgn aku pn xde stock,jgn hrp ler company lain nk ade stock.pehhh..b'lagaknye aku.sesekali,kasik can le.hehehe.

yg lain2,alhamdullilah..murah rezeki.byk order masuk.tak menang tgn gk le nk lyn.kalo sumer run smoothly mcm biase,pehhh..rase senang btl idup.today,bos belanja Mc D.bosan aku,kalo x KFC,Mc D..xpn Pizza.tak b'syukurkah aku ??

mak mcm tuh je le.jp ok,jp x ok.idung still kuar drh.ssh btl ati aku.aku plak,telinga sebelah kiri makin pekak.psl ape ntah.Tuhan dh tarik nikmat nie...pandai2 le nk digest mcmane.

ptg nnt,nk blk awal.nk beli brg dapur sket & nk carik tudung.lamo btl x beli tudung,pdhal tudung dh b'lambak2..elok lg,cuma dh outdated.napsu kuda padi btl aku nie.

to my mr customer,jgn le maki aku.stock takde bkn sbb aku.aku nie wat marketing je,bkn bukak kilang.bangang btl mr customer aku nie,pdn muka ko..aku maki ko blk.maki kat sini jer ler,nak face-to-face mmg tak daya.hehehe.

:: hrp2 sumer ok je ::

takde ape yg nk tulis pn.cume,smlm punye pnt rase mcm tak abes lg.today,mak pg Hospital Gemas.jumpe Dr Syed..Dr yg rawat dia since dia jd penduduk tetap kat sana.hopefully,xde citer yg x best timbul.dh ler aku nie dok jauh,kalo ade ape2..x larat nk blk cpt2.aku nie bkn expert sgt bwk kete,kang citer laen plak jdnya.knp le aku takde superpower,mcm superman ke,elastic girl ke.ape yg aku ngarot2 nie.tuihhh..tuihhh..

maybe,nx wk mak dtg HUKM.wat kimo kt sini.time nie le aku dpt spend masa dgn dia kt hospital.tp,mcmane le keadaan aku mase tuh.pueh le aku nk sorok air mata aku nie.aku nie dh le pengerusi cembeng & cemek sedunia.sabo ler aku,kuat sket.

ehem2 aku pn dh sehat sket.today last mc.sok leh dating mcm biase.hehehe.ssh ati aku,lately nie..sumer org yg aku sayg..sumernyer tak sihat.nk focus kt kj pn ssh.bkn nk carik alasan,tp..aku sedey sioutt...

:: ngantukss ::

ngantuk gile wehh..pg td drive dr kpg 5.30am,bgn tdo 5am.then,trs shoot pg opis.6.40am smpi r&r nilai.tdo jp smpi 7.30am.then,trs pi opis.mmg ngantuk gile.

punye le sedey nk tinggalkan ibunda,rase mcm xmo blk.nk jer aku bwk blk ketiak mak aku yg belah kanan tuh,bile nk tdo...aku kuarkn dr almari then letak atas palo.leh tdo bwh ketiak mak tiap2 ari.hahaha.

nie tgh b'chat dgn kak mas marketing.hehehe.lamo tak dgr citer dia.dia pn mesti dh lama gile tak dgr citer aku.alehhhh...aku bkn best pung nk kongsi citer kt sape2,baik pg muzium negara...lg byk paedah !!

mom,i love u sooooooooooo...much.get well soon k,insyaAllah.
to Jiman,hepi birthday yg ke 9thn & slmt b'khatan.eeeeee...