:: really,bored ::

ntah le,bosan gile dgn life skrg.sales figure pn tak bgs bln ni,mood pn rase mcm dh ding-dong.mmg malas nk lyn.dgn hal peribadi yg agak2 mencengkam jiwa.eee..malas le aku nk pikir pjg.

ape2 pn,aku nk spend wk end aku kt cherating dgn aman.nk rest.melepak & merelaxkn diri.semlm aku dh beli beg bunga2.my sayg ckp,corak yg aku beli tuh tak lawa..tp,aku kata lawa.then,bile aku smpi kt umah,rase mcm btl le my sayg aku ckp ape...mmg mcm tak lawa je.takpe le,nk wat mcmane.dh beli.

aku pn dh beli ubat mak,soooo..ati pn dh tenang sket.mak,alhamdullilah.sehat.mmg kaki mkn skrg.takpe,good for her.chaiyorkkk..my mom !!

:: Club MED,Cherating ::

nx wk,25-27/12/09 aku & sales team akan ke Club MED,Cherating.bos ajak p cuti2.aku risau gk,aku sorang je pompuan.alhamdullilah,bos ajak KM & Ana.takde le aku boring sgt kt sana.

esok,mak dtg umah aku.so,mlm nie pulun kms umah.esok mak nk tgk Along kt HKL.leh ler aku bwk dia jln2 p Putrajaya skali.

:: the gift ::

ESPRIT Ladies Houston-Essentials

Model: ES000EW2006

Size: Ladies

Series: Ladies Houston-Essentials

Band: Black Ion-plating Stainless Steel Bracelet (bling bling night houston)

Case: Black Ion-plating Stainless

Steel Dial: Black

Movement: Quartz

Price : RM 699.00

nie jam yg bos aku bg smlm,yg aku pakai skrg nie.smlm aku dh p IOI,potong tali.cantik.cute sgt.ramai gk le yg pjg moncong sbb aku dpt jam nie.well,best from the best win !!

bos,thank you for this.

:: escape the city ::

aku ade plan,nk bwk mak aku jln2.dunno,wer should i go.maybe,Langkawi.or,Terengganu.im not much like the island,but i think its a best place to go.lepak2 whole day at the shore,menghitamkn lg kulit.hehehe.

fikir dulu,see the time & budget.

in office,she left.again,left with bunch of money.really,fuck..rite ??? among 3yrs with this company,aku dh 3x kena kencing psl duit.all,malays.mcmane nie ??? i hate to help people.sick.

she,really animal & shit !

:: im sick ::

im sick,sick...really sick.

now,im sick to choose between Bali or Bangkok.

:: we're wrong ::

hate to tell u this,but..this is my feeling.we're sooooo wrong because we meet each others after a few years.we're a different person now.when we getting older,we find a true we're.a real colour of ourself.yes,im change.forgive me for differences.

fren,life must goes on.like before.erase me from your memories.im just a piece a meat.goodbye,my good old days..re-packing my luggage feeling,throw all the saddness & bitter heart.

all of this is a mistake,a stupid mistake.

dumb ??

:: re-pack my feeling ::

ntah mcmane,aku leh t'jumpa gambo nie..masa bos belanja mkn durian



nie pn hari yg sama,sampai hati Tan ambek gambo aku blurrr...gambo tikus tuh yg ok


last Saturday,aku sms dgn kwn lama aku.we had a simple conversation.talk about some girl stuff.one of the sms from her said 'ko ni kalo b'ckp tak pernah kalah' well,its a bit made me terkesima.in ordinary word,surpise lah.it is ?? did i in that type of people.well,just label me.i dont care.maybe my words quite sharp..i dunno.but,its me.i talk,suggest,share idea in my way.im rather 'cakap tak pernah kalah' than 'cakap tak serupa bikin'.

world is no border & limit.u can talk what u want.either u right,or wrong its depends how people thinking about u.but,of coz u believe all u words is true.badly,i dun want to digest this issue too much.we're big enough to think which is wrong & right.

just respect & accept each others.if u think u cannot,draw a line.dont worry,with OR without u..i still ok.i dont put my happiness in your pocket.

take note that,next time.

:: 2012 ::

sumer org ckp,2012 best.my sayg pn ckp best.aku ? ok ler kot.aku mmg kaki wayg.citer tak best pn aku tgk,apatah lg citer best.hehehe.soooo...semlm demi menunaikan hajat my sayg & nk merasa kebestan 2012,aku pn tgk le movie nie.show 3pm,tp...full house.hebat gk ekk..bg aku,ok leee..dh lama tak tgk movie 2hr 30min.

at the same time,boss suh survey nk p trip mana this yr.masing2 suggest this place.hurghhh..jungle again ?? what to do,must follow the majority.only 1wk left to blk kpg to celebrate Aidiladha.really,cant wait !!

:: he left,yesssssss ::

opismate aku yg byk ckp tp tak serupa bikin akhirnya,resign today.yesss...aku takde le rase ape2.cuma takde le org yg merapu2 lg.takde rase sedey ape2 pn.

man,for me..u just a piece a loser.totally,loser !!

shit,ur nothing more than shit !!

:: aku,selamat hari lahir ke 30 ::

terima kasih yg tak t'hingga kt officemate aku yg organise simple surprise party utk aku.terharu gak rasenye.kt dunia nie,tak ramai yg ingat birthday date aku.tak heran le sbb aku pn bkn slalu ingat birthday org.bg aku,menyambut hari lahir hanyalah pertukaran nombor merujuk kepada angka usia.tp,sekiranya anda mempunyai agenda..dont wait until change the age but do the changes immediately,takut tak sempat.well,we cant predict our life,when we should go & face The Creator.

recently,i had a really bad depression.too much to think about some issue.i just wanna be a simple human,burden my mind with some unforseen matter its really hurts to digest,and of coz to accept all the circumstances.i like,i like the sweet me who always take a matter with light pressure & settle every problem with a joyful yet meaningful.life is about choices.either u learn,unlearn & relearn.Ya Allah,give me back all the happiness that i had before.promise me with free preassure & sadness matters.really need it,Allah.

im applying Aidiladha leave on 28/Nov,means i will back to kampung for 3days.also,planning to PD..lepak-ing to Jemi house at PD dgn Mak Yah & my mom.need to realease a heavy rocks in my head.bestnyer dpt tgk mak time hati tgh tak best nie.

happy birthday to me on 09/Nov/2009

may myself happy forever,insyaAllah

:: piece of me ::

heppi besday to my old fren-Linda,yg ke 30thn.wish u all the best in what eva u do.long life & good in everything & so on.today,aku tak kuo.dok dlm opis.wat mcm2 kj.best ade,nyampah pn ade.settlekn kj2 mane yg t'tangguh tuh.

takde ape yg best pn.mcm biasa je.tiap2 ari ujan.pg,ptg & mlm.best,ujan tuh rahmat dr Tuhan.aku tak prnh merasakn dgn adanya ujan maka hari yg bakal aku lalui akan tak best.

rase mcm nk blk kpg,tp ade byk lg kj tak abes nie.nnt le.nx wk maybe.mlm nie,nk beli brg dapur sket.sumer dh abes.dr sabun bsh,ke tisu..sumer dh takde.itu lom benda2 laen lg.

today very the sejuk,wearing my belang2 stokin & HP sweater.hehehe.

:: november datang lagi ::

november,coming.yeahhh...its coming again.aku dh dpt wish dr my sayg for my happy birthday wish.he said,he want be the 1st one to wish me.thank you,dear.then,we're planning some simple celebration for this sunday.mcm tak t'kejut ekk...nk celebrate awal pn dia dh bgtau aku siap2.dia ckp,kalo tak bgtau awal2..takut aku dh ade plan dgn kwn2 plak.hehe.ok,reasonable.

plus,kena celebrate awal sbb ade tender closing on my birthday date.sad stori ! benci pn ade sbnrnya.letey.lately nie kena wat kj run-run.kuo tghari pns,ptg ujan plak.sakit kepala.bdn pn jd tak best.tiap2 ari telan ubat.

aidiladha nnt plan nk blk kpg.jengok mak & sedara mara.rindu this baby.Mohd Shahrul Airil,my nephew.prematured baby.i miss everything & everybody that i love.

:: nyampah-est ::

ade 3tender nk closing nx wk.aku jangkakan,akan bizi yg maha hebat.rasa malas pn ada,nyampah lg tak pyh ckp le.hehehe.

this wk,ade 2-3plan for wkend.tp,mcm takde mood plak.dok rumah je kot.lepak2.mood takde sgt2.aku nie asek gaduh je dgn my sayg.bile rindu,jumpe..pas tu gaduh.bile tak jumpe,rindu plak.mcm2.aku benci,m'jd aku.

:: Shell Advance Malaysian Motorcycle GP,Sepang Circuit ::

quite bizi,pnt.lately nie,kalo ptg je..mesti ujan.

ade 2tender nk buat.rase mcm tak menang tangan plak.

ade gk tender yg menang,alhamdullilah.

nie gambo last wk-25/Oct/2009

best !!

:: a fine day ::

as promise,Paul & Nick are not here today.already fly or reach Bangkok..maybe.i dun know.bestnye.today i can ular pjg2 without any worries except if Mem Besar masuk.saje le tuh,jd mata2 si Paul.hehehe.

this is,today a very 1st time im writing a blog with this new netbook.alllah,boringlah.everyday talk/write about this netbook.today also,im late come to work.very late,around 9.30am.superb.

i just called Kuala Lumpur Golf & Country Club,my payment..RM 14k is ready.yesss...a good progress for a very fine day.thks God !

i dunno why,im so berbulu with Tan Arman & Kayzie..why haaa ?? im not so racist to think that this people,good & not good..but,this 2jantan really make me meluat.really fuck.

also,perang dingin with my sayg.honey,i love u..u know that.but,for me..with or without u,i still ok.maybe,my life better if we letting go each others.i dont care about my past,but i have to look forward.for my own goods.

:: rezeki dr Allah ::

today,Paul & Nick are quite busy.same with me,buat2 bizi.for the time being,aku terlalu bizi with my new HP netbook.transferring photo,document & etc to this stuff.tomorrow,Jemi - my nephew will collect my Acer notebook.this notebook actually,never had any injury.everything is prefect except the size.well,its a trend nowdays.im not the one who always follow the trend,butt..this cute netbook was really awesome.cant to miss it.for a few days,im counting & thinking that which one should i change,either my notebook or my handphone.i like iphone,crazy about it for a pass few month,yet..till this time,i also nak this gadget.for some reason,i have to change my notebook & soon my handphone.no harm done.now or later,mesti akan di tukar.

tomorrow & until wkend,Paul & Nick going to Bangkok.hehehe.heaven,hurhhhhhgg !!dunno,maybe HP meeting.lantak le,for sure is...its time to ular panjg2.i'll continuing bizi with my new netbook.i like this thing.really,crazy siouttt.pehh,lama btl tak tulih pjg2 mcm nie.mood baek kot.

yesterday,after run-run to putrajaya-kelana jaya-shah alam..im soooo tired until i felt want to bunuh diri.to cheer me up,after the run-run journey,do my favourite xtvt.shopping time !! i like.hehe.i just brought a pair of sandal & handbag.both are Sembonia.cute.latest design.suddenlykn,aku rase mcm purse aku nipis.hehehe.when sampai office,tunjuk kt officemate.diorg ckp,why my new handbag colour are similar like KM punye.really ?? aku pn tak perasan.but,for sure is..mine is jauh lg cute dr KM punye.

some people said,im materialistic.nooo...its,just me.i like to do this.aku kasik mak aku duit every month,some for funding,for bills & the rest for myself.i just do what i like to do plus,aku MAMPU.hehehe.jgn jeles.

:: two of my new stuff ::

best,aku mmg best.i had change my laptop to mini laptop.in exact,HP Mini 2140 Netbook.its really sexy.8" only.handbag size.i like !!

my new Guess handbag.nie 1st time aku beli Guess,slalu bantai Sembonia je.cute.mcm aku gak.

:: wrong ::

i hate,her.....

i hate,him....

im wrong,so wrong !

aku nie,tak jaga hubungan aku dgn Tuhan.sbb tuh aku byk btl sakit hati lately nie.

damn !

shit !!

:: angry-est ::

my major weakness-anger management.i was thought that,if im older..i'll be more wiser.there is no prove for this.aku tatau le,knp aku nie tak blh rapat dgn somebody.hate to say this,bile seseorg tuh dh ade kwn yg lebey best dr aku,dh ade boipren,dh ade laki,dh ade part time bodoh sbb desparate nk carik duit lebey..trs masa utk aku takde.bile sms,nk reply pn ssh.nk hang out,lg ler ssh.fuck off.

bile ssh,pandai plak carik aku.i hate all of this.knp ekkk ..

aku jd mrh sgt2.rase mcm aku ni takde value lgsg.really,fuck off.

aku benci le.aku benci manusia mcm nie.time ssh,guling2 mintak tlg aku.call aku mcm nk mati sgt.tp,bile aku ssh..jgnkn nk tunjuk muka,nk reply sms pn ssh.gampang btl.

:: steamboat,tonite ::

dh 3ari,aku plan dgn budak2 opis nk pg steamboat kt sunway.last2,smlm kuar memo ade meeting dgn Ethan HP 5pm today.

keciwa tul aku.pdhal,punye excited gile semlm.last2,tak jd.putih le mato aku.esok,aku dgr je le citer masing2 pg steamboat.tp,aku hrp sgt tibe2 ade magic today.tgk2,Ethan t'paksa cancel meeting ke..tak pn,budak2 tak jd pg tonite.

hehehe.keep my finger cross looooo.....

:: 03/05/2007,missing u ::

hari nie aku tak keluar.nak wat homework.do some canvassing for new prospect.at the same time,follow up some customer yg mcm dh tenat.pg td,ade customer call.pg2 lg dh wat darah aku mendidih.marah gileeee....asek2 nk mintk discount,how to do business ??

ntah mcmane,recently..aku slalu t'ingat kt arwah kak sue.ari nie,godek2 internet..tiber2 aku masuk fotopages dia.then,aku jumpa gambo aku dgn arwah.we had a story,lots of stories.i wish if i can turn back the time.semoga roh arwah aman di sana,insyaAllah.

kak sue,u're unreplaceable.i'm sooooooo sorry !

:: ministry of hate ::

aku pnt ! pnt banget ! hate to do this,to do this work.really damn stupid shit things.i need injection of enjoyable.grrrrr....

dh 2ari wat kj mcm org gile.pg LHDN,trn naek lawyer office..today kena pegi Ministry Of Treasury.beb,did i dont have any job to do ???? aku nie,corporate affair ke ?? ishkk..ape le aku merungut2 mcm nie,lari rezeki.

sabtu nie,boss nk belanja mkn durian.hentam durian dulu b4 blk kpg.need to blk kpg this wk,my mom kata nk wat open house.

takde mood le nk tulih ape2 lg.bosan !!

:: im rejected ::

pg2 buta dh kuo,settle for UiTM & LHDN.pnt.nie dh smpi opis.byk kj tak settle lg.td,dlm bizi2 tahap gaban..sempat gk tgk wayg-Momok.citer mcm gampang,wat bazir duit aku je.pastu,lunch kt A&W.kan senang,dh tentu A&W tuh sblh GSC je.

then,singgah JJ jp.carik ape2 utk umah aku.takde benda pn.survey photo wall,tp mcm tak lawa.nnt tgk kt Parkson plak.tak pn,pg Ikea.mood nk m'lawakn umah tgh m'luap2 nie.skrg nie,smbil tulis blog..singgah2 kt Facebook jp.takde ape yg menarik pn,makin ari..makin m'yampah plak dgn Facebook.

saje letak gambo2 cemas kt blog nie.hehe.relex le,im thinking like any adult thinking.is normal what,cuma yg tak best..aku visualizekn benda nie.slrupppp...hehehe.bg aku,ok ape.cuma,t'over bukak aurat kot.need to do some urgent stuff.update later --

* piss off with LHDN,im rejected.need to pay RM,hampehhh !!

:: back to normal ::

aku dh b'baek2 dgn my sayg.mcm nie le aku,kjp gaduh..kjp ok.yg m'jd masalah,tak jemu2 nk gaduh.pelik btl.ari nie,dia pakai bj yg aku belikn.sejuk ati aku.pandai btl mamat ni bodek.alahhhh...aku dh msk sgt dgn trick dia.

pg td,boss plak bising2.kecut gk prt aku.takut ade,nyamph pn ade.tp sbb dh biase kena maki,menda2 tuh sumer aku dh imun.

smlm call my mom,alhamdullilah..dia ok.asek mkn je.semlm mkn smpi 3x.very good progress.ari tuh dia nk ambik gambo kt studio dgn aku,tp tak sempat aku nk bwk dia.sbb kesihatan yg tak m'izinkn.bile dh sihat,aku dh kena blk sini plak.

insyaAllah,blk this month aku bwk dia p kedai gambo.kemain lg mak aku,nk ambek gambo kt studio..nk pakai professional photographer.kelasss..hehehe.

today tak kuo,lepak2 kt opis dgn Peter.malas.pnt.

* its been such a long time to enclosed this avatar intimate photo,too sexy for me.i like the breast.its make me feel wanna.............................

really hot !!

:: maafkan,syg ::

pnt.sungguh pnt.tak larat.nk mrh pn ada.too much of fighting,too little understanding between me & my sayg.asek gaduh.tak jemu2 fighting.i just wonder,how can we live together soon ??

hidup bersama org yg dicintai merupakan impian bg semua org termasuk aku.dlm maksud lain,aku mahukn dia m'jd suami malah ayah kpd anak aku.dan aku dambakan,akan mengandungkn malah melahirkn zuriatnya.tp,kdg2 pelbagai rintangan seakan tidak memungkinkn impian ini m'jd kenyataan.

aku bkn b'mimpi terlalu jauh,b'khayal yg indah2 utk bersamanya..tp,aku cuma insan biasa yg menuruti lumrah alam.sentiasa m'hrpkn yg baik b'laku.

u,dont know how much i love u !

im sorry ...

:: a best damn thing ::

what a bored day.penat.too tired.mood nk kj,still takde.tp,kalo ikut mood nk kj..miss le soru.nk tak nk,today..have to work.mcm yg aku mentioned last posting byk sgt kj yg tak settle lg.

nyampah ade,suka pn ade.nyampah sbb today gerenti penat giler.suka sbb,alhamdullilah aku masih ade kj.bos plak,dok bising2 semcm.gerun plak.alaaaa...relax le,gua cuti seminggu je.

today kuo masuk KL,senario yg paling aku tak suka.esok,im planning to KLIA.do some stuff.penat again & again !! mood for raya masih ada,tp..kena hold sekejap.bg laluan utk wat kj.b'kj kan merupakan ibadah.emmm...

td,dok manja2 dgn my sayg.dgn harapan dpt kuar sama.tp,cam hampeh je.last2 aku kuo sorang2.takpe le,semlm dh dating.rindu tak tebal sgt lg.what-ever..its really a best damn thing,its u-my sayg !!

:: counting the day ::

really,im counting the days.seem like my good old days.mcm budak2.mood nk kj,mmg dh lama hilang.checking my mail account,lots of hari raya wishes.emmmm...its really a good sign.but,fact the reality is..i had a junk of unfinish issue to be settle.arghhh..kj,sampai bile pn tak abes2,rite ? tp kalo tak wat kj,miss le soru.grrrrr....

1day to be remind.yess...im ready to enjoy the days ! awaiting to wear a cun baju kurung & dress.to celebrate the festive with my lovely famili.i like ! unwait..really !!

also,to my sayg.we have to separate for a couple of days.quite rindu,skrg pn dh terasa.thank you for zakat fitrah.i give u some treat later k

time to go,jln2 jumpa customer.wish hari raya again & again,send hamper,artificial smile...urggghh..what a bored !!

:: slmt hari raya 2009 ::

nothing much to write.raya coming !! once a year.blk kpg on saturday morning,after sahur.for this raya,i'm planning some agenda that i think can be a very memoriable moments for me.

Allah,thank you for this breathing.i still can enjoy this life.still i ??

for mom,abg,kakak,anak buah-buahan also my fren....wait for me taw !!

to my sayg,u knew & know that..i love u sooooo much.always,insyaAllah.syg sayg abg.hopefully,tomorrow we can buka puasa together for last in this Ramadhan.semoga kita sentiasa di payungi oleh Ar RahimNya

:: blk kampong,tonite ::

lama tak update,quite busy.busy badan/or..buat2 busy.

esok,blk kpg.pg Batu Berendam dulu,ambek cik Anang.dia kata laki dia nk beli kepala ikan merah.aku mintak yg beso punye,sbb aku suka yg beso2.hahaha.

tak sabo nk tgk mak,dia kuar hospital today..insyaAllah.ikut kata abg aku le,td dia call.this is my kampong,my sweet kampong.nnt aku blk kpg,aku nk snap gambo umah plak..leh tgk masa2 windu.hehehe.

emmm...nothing much !

:: a ten cent story ::

this story was happen,long2 time ago.punye lama,smpi tak hengat date.nk jd cerita,that time..only that time..aku tibe2 mcm sesak.really,rasenye duit ade tp tak hengat knp kena pinjam duit org mase tuh.bkn byk mane pn,RM 50.pd aku,tak le byk mane..tp,dunno for certain2 people.aku pn,mmg jarang ajar diri aku pinjam duet kt org.maklum le,sbb duet..kite blh b'gaduh.tp,sbb yg paling utama is aku t'sgt le tebal muka kalo nk pinjm duit org.its just not only money,but everything i think.so,its ok for me if i have to sesak rather to borrow from somebody.

back to story,1day..i need a money.as mentioned,RM 50.aku pn pg le kt sorang minah nie.then,im asking..can i borrow u RM 50 ?? malu,mmg malu.but,i dont had any option that time.dia ckp dgn aku,knp tak pinjm kt kak elly jeee ?? (my senior in my dept).yuzzzzzz...sesak siottt.aku pinjm kt dia,sbb aku rase dia bestpren aku (ke,aku je ke yg rase mcm tuh ??) kalo aku nk pinjm kt kak elly,anytime aku leh mintk pinjm.lps tuh,aku bla jeee...duet x dpt,malu & rase t'hina yg dpt.

after that stupid scene,tibe2 aku dgn minah cikai nie kena p course sama2.the interesting part is made a call guna public phone.so,after dia ckp segala..ade duit balance.tak byk pn,ade seposen je.so,aku dgn muka yg tak reti2 bahasa ni..aku pn offer le diri aku nie,buat call utk abiskn duet seposen tuh.tibe2,tak jd plak.aku pn letak telepon then,suddenly minah cikai tuh trs check duet balance yg jatuh.i mean,that ten cent.

aku pn ckp,that was only ten cent.dia reply,even its was ten cent,but..i was my money.hahaha.after that,till now..baru le aku kenal dia siapa.kedekut pahit.aku pn tak perasan sblm ni sbb jarang t'jebak dgn scene yg melibatkn duet2 dgn dia.after 3yrs quit from my old lovely sweet company(btl ke ??),even once aku tak rindu kt dia.no need to remember a person that deserved to do so.....

but,why..i,still think of her ??

left unanswered ~

(fuck for her !!)

** a photo of my JJ durians & my scarlet carpet

:: KLIA ::

ari isnin,pg KLIA.nie 1st time aku pg atas urusan kj.slalu dok sibok anto @ fetch org je.ade le 2-3x dok t'lajak jln.maklum le,bkn jln kite.mane le perasan jln.sooo...alang2 dh smpi,sempat le snap 2-3 pics kt sana.saje wat kenang2an.hehehe.

semlm,aku mc.penyakit perempuan.hehehe.tak larat sgtt.so,dok umah.rest well then today blh kj mcm biase.smlm gk,kt Hospital Seremban..mak wat kemo for 2nd session.pg td aku call,dia dh start muntah2.tuh mmg side effect after kemo.ape2 pn,may Allah cure & bless u always.

laen2,takde..except semlm i dating dgn my sayg..muahhhh..

:: my sayg ::

my sayg,nama yg aku simpn dlm henpon aku merujuk kpd nama boipren aku.but today,abg can i borrow that title for my mom.she is more that my sayg,more than me..more for everything.

ni gambo mase mak masuk hospital selama 2minggu.pueh nk ajak b'gambo.tuh pn maen snap secepat mungkin.kang t'kujat plak doktor/nurse kt hospital tuh.

esok,mak wat kemo kt Hospital Seremban for second session.mom,get well soon.after everything back to normal or almost normal..adik bwk mak jln2 k

dear mom,i love u.