rase kelakar gile sgt2,kt FB jumpa kwn2 lama.rase mcm..emmmm..its hard to explain the feeling.its all mixed around.ade yg,still maintain like that & ade yg totally change.me ? still like this.before & ever.i guess.hehehe.
today is really stupid dumb-dumb day.my bateri kong again.melayg duit aku.RM 170,last 2wk dh melayg RM 300 servis kete.dh start le kete nie,dh masuk thn ke 4,dia dh wat mcm2 perangai.m'abeskn duit aku je.fed up btl.
me & my sayg ? malas nk lyn.makin ari makin naek lemak.im not in good condition with my relationship.should i keep it silence or move alone ?? im in dilemma.
kasik aku update blog nie dulu sementara aku tgh upload gambar kt FB.ari nie,kuar dgn my sayg.dating.emmm..windu.lama dh tak bau bdn dia.sblm tu,td aku pg USIM kt Nilai.sign surat setuju terima.menang 1 sebutharga,RM 32k.jd ler...alhamdullilah.
tataw ler,makin ari..makin meluat plak dgn KM & Zam.mcm bgs.dh ler nk kawen pinjam loan.lancau jer.lg 3ari,aku nk blk kpg.tak sabarnyer.windu sgt kt mak & famili.
mcm2 ler problem lately nie.dgn UiTM,Jabatan Meteorologi lg.itu lom masuk RapidKL.tension !!
ari tuh,dh update blog nie.tp,knp ntah..tiber2 line internet plak takde.dh tulis pjg2,tgk x update..darah pn dh naek.aku trs shut down.nie,aku tataw ler.agak2nyer,ok ler kot.sbb td update facebook ok je.skrg nie,aku b'lintas lgsg dr Mc D kt UiTM Shah Alam dgn Shiela.aku sbnrnye dh ilang sabar dgn minah nie.naek kepala dh.lebey sgt.dh ler kuo naik kete aku,minyak,parking,toll..sumer aku yg sponsor.dgn mknan dia pn aku nk sponsor.dh lebeykn ??
ari nie,aku nekad.ape nk jd,jd ler.aku beli jer meal aku.aku wat derk je dgn dia.tgk2 pandai plak dia beli sendri.dasar koling btl.suka ambek kesempatan.cibai itam btl.kata dh nk berenti,sibok jer ikot aku kuar.pastu,asek2 tanya bile nk pg KL.ishkk..dok jer ler kt opis tuh,jgn nk naekkn expenses aku lg.
ari nie,dgn bangganya,KM ckp dgn aku.bile nk pg Kelantan.adoi...bangga sgt dpn kawen dgn duda anak 4 tuh.tak heran ler aku.setakat nk kawen pn kena pinjam loan CIMB.dh ler cincin tunang halus,kicik je.emas putih plak tuh.nmpk sgt mcm silver.aku heran ler,mentalliti sesetgh org nie.org ade,dia nk ade.pdhal,ape yg dia ada tuh..buat org gelak je.
eh,sebutharga USIM aku menang ler.td depa call.x ler byk,ade le dlm RM 32k.jd ler yer...wat tambah2.thks,God..for all of this
aku pnt.aku nie,tiap2 ari ngadu pnt kn ? tp,mmg pnt.tiap2 ari kuo wat kj.mane x pnt.x cukup tdo & rest lg.malas.kj kuat,tp x kaya gk.hehehe.
malas ler aku update blog ni pjg2,sbb aku pnt.esok kj lg.rumah x b'kemas.bj b'sepah sana sini.arghhh...tensen !!
mcm2 benda jd lately nie,aku plak malas nk ambek too serious.nnt kata aku nie b'kira sgt.tak suka.aku tatau ler nk bgtaw mcmane.kdg2 rase mcm org ambek kesempatan,tp dlm masa yg sama..aku kesian kt dia.well,kita kj sama2..ade mcm2 komitmen.tak semestinya aku tua,aku asek kena sponsor sumer.ingat aku ni saper ? kuli batak ke ? aku rase dh naek m'yampah gile dgn perangai mamat nie.sumer nk mintak aku sponsor.dr petrol,mkn minum,tol segala.smpi skrg ni naek lemak,asek bukak drawer aku ambek mknan aku.ape kes nie ? ko nk mkn,beli le sendri.asek2 ko nk bukak drawer aku,watper ??
aku dh agak dh yg dia nie kaki speedo.tgk dr gaya dulu,dgr dia b'cerita segala.smcm je.last2,kena kt aku plak.ishkk..aku x suka ler.today kuar dgn Sheila.minah ni pn 1 hal,dh nk wat sales..takde transport.sumer nk aku sponsor.adoi,botak ler aku mcm nie.knp ler depa ni slalu wat aku mcm nie.pls le,aku bkn mak korang k !
sometimes,im not so sure what i want in thiz life.im a simple person,which had a very simple lifestyle & thinking.juz recently,i felt really demoralize.coz of some understanding reason.i think that im something wrong somewer.a people around me,seem like made me sick.here not right,there also not right.what happen to me,really ? do i need go to therapy session.yes,i cant look people happy.i cant see people do & have more than me.im sick.why thiz feeling comes into my life ? did im greedy ?
down,when i look people married.i want too but its not a correct time yet.something need to be settle first.is this made me angry ? im not too sure,but did i care with my status.yes,but..im not worries about it bcoz i know what i want.
a new girl left,at last.its like a burden when u have to look after new staff.then,im going to Jabatan Meteorologi to look at the spoil toner.quite surprise to see the damn shit girl.i hate to do this order,from the 1st time i knew her.dh ler mkn rasuah,kerek lebey.that goods,its not our goods.sure somebody else punya.i can confirm.its not my stock.its FAKE ! i know its not original.but,nevermind..have to find the prove 1st..then i know how to ajar u.shame of u ! WTF
td aku bukak FB,then kwn aku ade promote sorang kwn kt aku.skali aku tgk.its ZMJ.emm..surprise rite ? after almost 4yrs x dgr kabar berita,tiber2 dia ade.ade 2org anak,sepsg.aku xtaw,knp hati tibe2 sakit,nyampah without any reason.
for me,if u are male/female..single/married..thru my naked eyes..u are still my FRIEND.nothing more/less.get it ???
with or with out u,im ok.sooo...now,get out from life !
menang lg,for USIM sebutharga.not much,RM 39k.ok ler kn.wat tambah2.so far,baru minggu ke 3 dlm April nie,sales aku dh RM 325k.wahhh...mcm x sangka ekk.once of the lifetime achievement.but,its a really good beginning for me.thank you,God.
today,got new sales member.malas nk lyn.sakit kepala aku je.biar je le.pandai2 ler diorg nk survive.mcm aku dulu.
tgh addict dgn lagu Adam Lambert-What Do You Want From Me.love him sooooo much ! (i dun care either he is gay,its nothing to do with me)
smlm,ade e-bidding Izwan.RM 1million plus-plus.kalah,no 4.sedey.smlm & today,dok pulun wat tender DBKL.amount almost RM 3,000,000.00 fuhhhhhh..best btl dgn amount tu kn ?? pakcik kayo rasenye.
now,still bizi.tambah pnt.asek duduk dpn PC gentel benda nie.nk blk,kj plak tak siap lg.tensen !! ni gambo p museum negara ari tu,masa kuo dgn my sayg.jumpa Nashya Aziz,Amber Chia,Ning Baizura,Su Ki & sapo ntah..pelakon india tuh.iskk..aku pnt sgt2 nie !!
today,my sayg MC lg.for 2days.today & esok.smlm pn dia MC.demam.bdn pns.sian dia.aku ? pn ade citer x best.confirm brek kete rosak.smpi dh gesel to tyre disc.soooo..kena tukar ler.sedey.tgh bln plak tuh.xleh ler aku sopping sakan bln nie.naseb baek dh beli handbag,baju dlm,buju kurung,cardigan siap2.ade lg tuhh..budget nk beli emas t'tunda ler mcm nie.ptg nnt,ambek kete kt work shop blkg opis,kena RM 300.sbb ade cash RM 150 je,kena pinjam kt wani another RM 150.malas nk p cocok.
gambo nie,snap dek Alin.sbnrnya nk gayakn lipstick yg aku tibai dr Ana.tp,nmpk mcm nk m'nunjuk brg kms plak.sooo..aku letak jer ler kt sini memandangkn x sesuai letak kt FB.saje promo my cincin merisik-belah rotan & my cincin tunang.gambo last skali,mcm gambo model tak cukup kain pn ade.seksi plak rasenye.hehehe.sesekali.
miss my car,hrp2 diaorg repair ok.takpe le kena mahal,asal ok.kalo x ok,aku kejar diorg.dkt je pn,blkg opis aku je.hehehe.Allah,pls protect me from all disaster !
at last,masuk jugak P/O utk KL Golf beli HP Plotter Printer 44' RM 20k.submitted quotation on Sept 2009,April 2010 baru siap.7bln beb.bkn senang nk wat business dgn high profile company.guling2 gk aku present mcm2,tunjuk muka sedey raih simpati..last2 masuk gk.NN dh ckp,nk bg high commision utk deal nie.well,emmmmmm....
smlm aku pg Tomei.gold price at RM 133/gram.aku pn jeling2 ler dlm kedai tu.ape ler yg best.nk beli cincin,dh ado.golang,fashion paling baru pn dh ado.rantai,pakai ler ape yg ade.mak aku yg kasik,kenangan tuh ! gelang kaki,comey..tp,i dont like.tp,can consider gk ler sbb takde menda nk di beli lg.tgk dulu mcmane.budget ade,but..look how lah later.
ari nie my sayg MC.demam.smlm kena mrh,today dh MC.bkn aku yg mrh,PN mrh dia.mcm2 ler mamat nie.malas aku nk advise lg.pandai2 ler wat kj sendri.saje aku letak gambar Hi Fi Philips yg aku menang mase lucky draw ari tu.letak kt dlm bilik b'sama tv kecik Panasonic 14' (kenangan tuhhh !!) &,my gelang halus bak misai udang.Tomei ckp,pattern t'baru..sesuai utk org muda.tp,mudakh aku ?? nk ambek yg mix dgn chrome,lawa sket.ade gold,ade silver.tp,my sayg x b'kenan plak.nk wat mcmane kn,dh ongkosnya share.ahaksssssss...
ari nie aku kuar,from Cheras..blk plak opis jp.ambik brg kt opis kjp utk antor ke customer.urgent.then,direct to Shah Alam.dh abes kt sana,p plak Subang.dh siap wat kj,p Tesco jp beli brg dapur.tibe2 ari nie aku nk tukar mood.dh jemu dgn JJ kot.saje le aku volunteer nk kuor dgn Ms Shiela td.ntah,aku pn xtaw knp tibe2 mood aku baek nk angkut dia.
td,tingkap plak asek jammed jer.x blh naek.jenuh gk ler aku nk maen2 button tu suh naek.quite panic gk.aku x suka drive kete sambil bukak tingkap.pns.benci.try punya try,blh gk.sbb dh fobia tingkp x blh tutup after bukak,aku byr duit tol td,t'paksa ler bukak pintu kete.pelik pn ade.benci x pyh ckp le,nyamph sgt2 kena wat mcm tu.
today,aku tgk result tender yg ari tu.alhamdullilah,price aku the lowest.as for now,aku dh supply byk jabatan kt UiTM tu.smpi HP dh protect aku.yessss..itu yg aku tunggu2 dr dulu.
as for now,project dlm tgn :-
1. Jabatan Imigresen - RM 157k
2. UiTM - RM 436k
nx mth,MITI plak kuo tender.dia kata,untuk pembelian Jln Duta & Putrajaya skali.alhamdullilah.last yr menang for RM 325k utk Jln Duta shj,thiz yr if dia merge dgn Putrajaya,im expect the amount is more than that.hrp2,rezeki on my side again.
mamat nie...grrr...nk kata hensem,xde ler hensem.tp,hensem ler dr my sayg.bdn dia yg wat x tahan tu.dr ari tu,since aku tgk Twilight Saga..aku rase mcm..slrupppp...smcm.hehehe.sape tak suka tgk menda2 yg best ekkk ???
he is my man-PERFECT !!
td pg Bukit Damansara,lunch.dgn my sayg.mcm biasa,letak kete kt tepi jln.adoii..skali DBKL lalu.x perasan,kena saman plak.iskk..hate thiz ! dh ler kuew teow goreng lmbt smpi,hitam legam plak tu.lgsg ilang selera aku nk mkn,even b4 that aku lapar tahap gaban.
ari ni,byk sgt gangguan.customer asek call.goods tak smpi.grrrr.....letey ler asek nk jwb.tp,nk wat mcmane..walau telinga pns,dgr je ler !!
my sayg plak,asek kena mrh dek PN.smlm seround,today seround.mamat nie pn 1,lemau.wat kj mcm maen guli.bosan ! pdn muka ! hahaha
it seems weird.for some kind of reason,i felt abandon.i hate thiz feeling.like i said in previous posting,im hurt..inside.grrr....did i too old & became too sensitive ?? or,thiz what we called annoying ? sometimes,a simple thing/issues..i take it very serious matters.seems like my heart broke into multiple pieces.
byk lg kj nak kena wat,dr layan hati yg mcm cilaka.if i keep this feeling,im not going anywer.look forward for a better future.insyaAllah.
a moment like this, some people wait a lifetime..for a moment like this, some people search forever but for me..frankly,dude..i'll waste it again & again.do not asked me why because i do not had any answer for that.im always,take everything for granted.every single moment is unvaluable for me.its not a crime,but its juz only me.do not have to understand me because i cant to understand myself..neither !
its still a sick day.a cloud for me.dont hit me too much,or..i'll burst.again.im not in a good mood.my body condition made me crazy.i think,everybody curse me for past few days.sharp words,unplease behaviour...dude,im really bad.just keep silent.dont kacau me.we (u&me) will fine.
i just want to going back.take a rest & sleep.im hurt,inside.Allah,help me.
fever/demam.sakit kepala,selesema,bdn pns..package skrg nie dlm bdn aku.dr pg,dok kt opis without do any work.ade gak kj2 yg x t'lalu membebankn yg dh aku wat.but,majority from my time..is dok melagho je.
aku & ana tgh demam skrg.tp,dia dh tewas.dia dh blk umah pn.tinggal aku je.lyn sakit paler sorang2.nk di jadikan cerita,PN plak kuo luch dgn NN.berita baek ler kn ? leh ler aku sambung rest.kalo esok x ok gk,aku MC le.nk wat mcmane ! eh,tp aku ade sebutharga UiTM closing esok le plak !!
ari nie,rase best sgt2.wlupn dlm hati ade mcm2 perasaan.watper ler nk lyn perasaan yg x best tu,lets celebrate the happiness.
td pg Jabatan Imigresen,menang sebutharga yg wat ari tu.RM 157k,alhamdullilah..murah lg rezeki aku.Thks,God..for all of this !
ntah le,aku rase life skrg semakin memualkn,membosankn.betapa murahnya erti nilai persahabatan bg seseorg.tp,adakah aku manusia yg menghargai persahabatan.or,im too high expectation ??
dunno.jwpn masih kabur.but,i hate what i hate.i hate people do this to me.treat me like i never exist before.dont talk any words if one day u cant to complete it.ckp x serupa bikin.
frenz,goodbye ! im already gone before u noticed about it
aku tatau m'gambarkn diri aku mcmane.i think,im nice.maybe,not too nice.nice/not,how do i care ? did i have to please every people ?
i do what i like & of coZ i do not do somethings that i do not like.what for ? again,to please people.who are u to label me ? r u good enuff.well,go to hell & WTF.
YES ! im not that good.but,im trying to do as best as i can.aku dh tua le,dh pnt.maybe,too sensitive.dont blame me & dont blame urself.its nothing wrong.i dont want u to know me deeper.juz,accept me..the way im.
for me :-
with/without..im ok
nothing change !
today,settle mane yg ptt.pg LHDN the UiTM.pnt.pg LHDN KJ,tutup plak !! kena p Shah Alam.ishkk...tensen gua.yg wat lg tensen,kena berak dek burung plak td.adoii..knp le jd mcm nie.nie mesti Tuhan balas dosa2 aku sbb marah2 my sayg lately nie.
ape2 pn,today p sopping.beli jam utk diri aku.sopping hujung bulan.abeskn duit.sebenarnya nk beli jam warna merah/base inside warna merah & brand Casio.tp,takde yg b'kenan.tensen lg.soooo...utk xmo blk tgn kosong,aku beli le jugak jam Fossil.ni je yg aku b'kenan.RM 359.90.chantek ! puas hati ! yg penting,I LIKE !!
