alhamdullilah,utk March 2010 ni..sumer b'jln dgn lancar.malah,ia 1 perjalanan yg maha hebat.terlalu cemerlang jika ingin aku klasifikasikn.dude,im really happy with the result.thks to God for this gift & myself atas semua kesabaran.
like yesterday,im still counting my days.blk kpg ? sesuatu yg mmg buat aku tak blh sabar.nk jumpa famili & yg penting..mak aku.rindunya aku,tp..depa rindu x kt aku ? hehehe.rindu aku tak mintak di balas.ia adalah hak peribadi aku.dgn adanya rindu yg m'cengkam jiwa,makin membuatkn mereka lebih b'makna dlm hidup aku.
beginilah hidup org bujg,takde siapa yg lebey penting di hati kecuali mak & famili.boipren ?? emmmm..simpan diam2 dlm hati.ada space khas utk u,shut up & just love me like usual.enuff.i love u strong-strong taw ! hahaha.
im applying leave on 03/04/10 on this saturday.mak yah ade wat kenduri kt kpg.at the same time,leh ler tgk2 mak kt kpg.dlm time2 mcm nie,mmg...mmg sgt2 teringat kt mak.kesian,sayg,simpati,takut..mcm2 perasaan b'tukar ganti.
skrg nie,asek m'hitung hari nk blk kpg.sabar,sabar ler wahai hati.insyaAllah,ade jodoh & kesempatan..mesti smpi.
alhamdullilah,rezeki makin murah.ari nie,UiTM call.ambek surat tawaran esok.menang sebutharga lg.RM 200k.thks to God.akhirnya,berkat kesabaran aku..m'dtgkn hasil.aku percaya,Tuhan sentiasa menolong org yg sabar.
ntah ler,dlm hati nie fikir mcm2.tambah lg dgn bdn yg pnt.mcm2 yg di fikirkn.tp,aku try to settle 1-1.insyaAllah,tak ler semakin messy jdnya !
1.50am,sundayabg aku call.pelik gk,knp plak nie.dgn mata yg mengantuk,angkt ler jugak.mane le taw kalo2 ade emergency.zusss...mmg pn ! mak aku bleeding again.almost 1hr.soo,abg aku bwk pi hospital Gemas.from Gemas,tendang tu hospital Seremban.so,abg aku nk suh aku tunggu kt hospital Seremban to look after her.im ok,with the time.but,aku xtaw tmpt tu kat ner.gegar gak ler.transform jd F1 aku pg2 buta.2.30am aku smpi.jumpa my mom & my brother kt sana.
terasa seperti akan sebuah kehilangan air mata aku ? tak pyh ckp ler.hati pn,mcm laut kt club MED..b'gelora manjg.tp,aku xmo ler nangis dpn dia.dia dh ler mcm tu,kalo aku nangis.mesti dia lg sedey.mesti dia lg tak kuat.
im really sad,only God know everything inside !
dude,im really tired.hit to the limit.i need a time to chill.not enuff rest,sleep & everything.rase,dlm masa t'dkt nie..aku nk rest.ambek cuti.memandangkn,dh March..aku pn x prnh apply cuti.
rase nk jln2,tak dpt jauh..dkt also can.lps selesai sumer tender,aku nk rest.m'lepak2 kn diri yg montel nie.hahaha.
ade bbrp story yg best,yg tak best spjg minggu nie.ade tender close 29/03/10.smlm dinner mkn ikan pating msk tempoyak.sdp gile !
aku jumpa gambar lama.last yr punya kot.kelakar.a picture with a thousand story.
im sad.really sad.seriously.td,aku kalah.2deals in 1day.what a sad monday.sedey.sgt2 sedey.smpi tatau nk ckp mcmane.even,the others deal i won before is much higher than this..but,its truly put myself in deep shit.as a person which involve in sales,i always want/hope..all quotation had been made..can be close & have transaction.
the 2deals are :-
1. UPM - RM 31k
2. MOSTI - RM 45k
aku bkn pts asa,aku cuma b'sedey.istilah pts asa,tak prnh ade dlm hidup aku !
td,UPM call.menang sebutharga printer 15bijik.tp,yg tak best,sebutharga utk toner kalah.ishkk..tak best ! today kuo dgn Izwan.saje je le.lepak2 dgn mamat nie.
takde ape yg best lg.pnt.campur ngantok.
punye le kelakar,today pakai bj kurung lama.jln2 1 lembah klang.dr Puchong to Putrajaya,singgah Cheras plak then ke Petaling Jaya.nk blk,singgah kt Sunway Piramid.siap beli baju kt JJ.
bile smpi opis,Wani plak tgr.adoii...baju aku koyak rupanya.mmg aku sedar koyaknya kecik,tp x sangka plak leh pjg smpi sejengkal.wat muka tak malu je le bile org tegur,naseb baek aku mmg jenis muka tebal.
emmm...really messy lately.lps blk dr kpg Isnin ari tu,aku trs blk lewat dr kj tiap2 ari.x sempat nk kms umah.ade tender & mcm2 lg kj yg ntah ape2 ntah.today,nekad nk blk awal.do my laundry,sapu rumah & lipat bj.rimas le rumah sepah lama.tension !!
last wkend blk kpg.tgk keadaan mak.makin teruk nmpknya.darah kuar mcm air paip >< 1jam.well,of coz aku panik.gile punye panic.cik nor pn panik.aku rase,everybody yg tgk pn akan panik.abg aku plak takde.maen bola.yer ler,menda nk jd.well,juz imagine kalo sumer takde kt umah.cuma tinggal mak.mcmane ekk ?? mak plak,xmo ade maid.pening ler aku.deep in my heart,sumer perasaan ade.risau,sedey,takut..God ! only You know everything.
pagi nie,tiber2 Saiful ckp..dia menang tender Hospital Ampang RM 200k ++,tiber2 timbul 1 perasaan yg x best.well,tender tu ptt aku yg wat.tp,sbb aku bizi dgn tender UPM,bos suh Saiful wat.aku rase mcm,mcm x best.feel like its not fair for me.or,adakah aku semakin tamak ? at the same time,aku baru je terima awarded last wk from :-
1. UiTM - RM 568k
2. Jabatan Imigresen - RM 180k
3. UPM - RM 45k
knp aku asek rase tak cukup ? cemburu membuta tuli.always think that it was mine.inikah penyakit hati yg di namakn dengki,iri hati,busuk hati etc.hate this feeling.dulu,im kind of moderate people.easy to handle.
adakah,masa merubah aku ???
semlm,lps aku blk.dgr Ahmad kena mrh.teruk katanya.ntah ler,bos mmg garang.dia plak ding-dong smcm.well,tatau nk ckp ape.tp,bg aku..as a staff,u should know wer u stand.
ari nie,dia tak dtg.berenti/EL.dunno.bg aku,rezeki kt mane2.dunia nie luas.even,kt KL pn..byk peluang.KL nie bsr,xkn takde tmpt utk kita carik rezeki.
Ahmad,do the best for urself.good luck.im sorry for u,really ! good luck,bro
mcmane le nk increase sales ekk,HP..bg le aku lead.please....im stuck,dude
lawak ler,aku jumpa gambar ni kt FB.takde le aku masuk dlm photo album aku.gambar 3thn lps rasenya.masa company trip to Pulau Redang.aku yg organise trip nie.siang mlm tak tdo.hehehe.
masa nie,pakai bj size M & suar pendek atas lutut.wahhhh...agak soSIAL ekkk ???
im sorry if u felt unpleasedim too bizi with nothing & everything !
